Guilt hangs on us like a heavy weight.  Sometimes it manifests itself in the way we live, think and relate to others.  Here’s an example – though not a serious offense, it crept into my dreams and convicted me.

We had a large bird feeder in our backyard that I was constantly filling, because a group of squirrels had made it their cafeteria.  Finally, in frustration, I got out my husband’s pellet gun, I took aim and shot.  It was a gut wrenching experience.  I’d never fired  a weapon in my life.  Besides, the poor squirrel was just as hungry as the birds, but I still felt compelled to protect my territory.  As I released the trigger, everything happened in slow motion . . . I could see the pellet make its way through the air and hit the helpless critter.  He held out his front paws and dramatically fell to the ground.  My heart fell with it.  What had I done?  I killed a living thing.  Soon the stunned animal scurried off into the woods, but not without wounding my heart.

That night, as I slept, memories of the incident invaded my dreams.  I was seated atop the bird feeder and hundreds of squirrels were circling me and firing pellet guns – an amusing story, but full of truth on how sin can overcome us.

The sins of every day should convict and bring us to our knee in repentance before the Lord.  We often sin without even realizing it.  We sin in words, deeds and actions, but God is eager to receive us, when we come to Him with true sorrow and ask for forgiveness and then leave our sin behind us.

Growing as a Christian is a constant work in progress and continues until our last breath.  Thank God for His saving grace.  He has given us the victory.


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