
I usually don’t have a problem with falling asleep at night. As I spend the short time between closing my eyes and actually beginning the process usually takes seconds. Once my head hits the pillow, my brain shuts down. Actually, it never shuts down but it does take a rest for eight hours or so. When I was much younger, I’d count my blessings after saying the Lord’s Prayer. As time progressed, prayers for friends became the fare of the day. Instead of counting sheep, I would often fall asleep saying my prayers. Now I just fall asleep, with no assistance.
Counting blessings usually occurs as I rise in the morning. I thank Jesus for another day. Another day of life is a special blessing when you get to be my age. I recall the events of yesterday – look ahead to what I will encounter today – and wonder how long God will wake me each morning. Of course, there are many blessings that I don’t count on, but I know they are still there. Like an unexpected visit from a friend – a custard filled donut – being able to walk to the bathroom without assistance – remembering why I walked there – opening a jar without help – remembering to turn off the stove – not falling down – staying clear of the hospital or doctor’s office. These indeed are blessings when you’re in your 80s.
I have led a very interesting life. I’ve been blessed in countless ways. I realize that my body is slowing down and yet I have developed a tough work ethic over time and find it hard to actually stop and smell the roses. I’m trying. Lately, I’ve been painting the flowers instead. My physical body is slowly deteriorating, but my mental state keeps telling me I have work to do. In the meantime, I am learning to get my exercise by walking through a department store. I have avoided working in my garden because of breathing issues. I write, I paint, I binge on old TV shows – I look out my window and enjoy God’s beauty. I think a lot about what heaven will be like. Then I realize that there is a bit of heaven right here and now. If I were to actually write a list of all the blessings I’ve been given, that would keep me busy for another lifetime.
THANK YOU, JESUS, FOR ANOTHER DAY OF BLESSINGS.
Your attitude is amazing.
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I wish I could agree with you. There are days when I feel lonely, misunderstood, unworthy, judgmental and just plain crummy. Those are the times it’s better for me to be alone. I am grateful for your kind words though.
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You do amazing work…love your paintings.
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Thank you Karla. I’m really enjoying painting. I still an amateur but I certainly appreciate your kind comments.
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