As Christians, we’re told to trust God in all situations – to carry our burdens to Him – to be still and know that He is God. That sounds almost like a copout – like the easy way out of a situation. It isn’t so easy to do though, is it? We go through life trying to fulfill certain goals – build relationships – help people – do the right thing – be all that we can be, but when push comes to shove, we think we should be able to handle whatever on our own.

If someone told you that they would take all your troubles on their own shoulders, wouldn’t that be a wonderful offer? How could we resist such a great deal. God makes that promise to us every single day and still we try to muddle through the muck alone. The devil is a sneaky creature when it comes to getting into our heads. He uses our weaknesses to maneuver our thinking as well as our actions. He wants us to believe that we’re foolish to trust in someone we can’t see

I came across the lyrics to a Christina Aguiler song called, “It’s Not Easy Loving Me.” The words really fit when it comes to our relationships with others, but even more so when it comes to our connection to God. I don’t think it was written with that intention, but our first Love should be God and the rest will fall into place.

It’s not so easy lovin’ me
It gets so complicated
All the things you gotta be
Everything’s changin’
But you’re the truth
I’m amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

And when I’m about to fall
Somehow you’re always waiting
With your open arms to catch me
You’re gonna save me from myself
From myself, yes
You’re gonna save me from myself
Oh, yeah

Don’t ask me why I’m cryin’
‘Cause when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smilin’
You always save me from myself
From myself, myself
You’re gonna save me from myself

I know it’s hard, it’s hard
But you’ve broken all my walls
You’ve been my strength, so strong

And don’t ask me why I love you
It’s obvious your tenderness is what I need to make me
A better woman to myself
To myself, myself
You’re gonna save me from my, myself

Today, resolve to let God take the reins in your life. He has promised to carry your burdens and He will. Instead of turning into yourself for healing, turn to the One who created you and your uniqueness. He is more powerful, more intelligent, more available than anyone or anything else you could ask for in time of need.

“Though I walk in the midst of trouble,you preserve my life;
you stretch out your hand against the wrath of my enemies,
    and your right hand delivers me.” Psalm 138:7 ESV



As I reach the end of my years, I find I have a lot of good information stored up in this old decrepit mind of mine. If I don't write it all down, it may vanish and no one will have the advantage of my thoughts. This is why this blog exists. I love the Lord, Jesus with all my heart and soul. I know I'm undeserving of all He's done for me, but I also know that His love is beyond my comprehension. I've always wanted to write. I never kept diaries, but tucked my thoughts in my head for future reference. I use them now in creating stories, plays, poetry and my blog. I continue to learn every day. I believe the compilation of our time spent with God will have huge affect on the way we live. I know I'm a sinner and I need a Savior. I have One through Jesus, Christ. My book, "Stages - a memoir," is about the seven stages of life from the perspective of a woman. It addresses all the things girls and women go through in life as they travel it with Jesus, and it is available on
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2 Responses to AM I MY OWN WORST ENEMY?

  1. Nancy Ruegg says:

    It’s certainly been a growing process for me, turning a bit more quickly to God each time a challenge arises. One of the benefits of getting older is having a store of memories when God provided for needs, guided decisions, and protected from worst-case scenarios. As I remember his faithfulness in the past, I’m strengthened for whatever I’m facing in the present. (A journal-notebook started in 1983 records hundreds of such events in our family, so I don’t have to rely on memory alone!)

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