I know that my Redeemer lives and that I will inherit His kingdom some day. I believe that His resurrection from death is in truth what will happen to me when I die, but for some reason, that nasty old enemy tries to convince me that I still must do something to forgive myself. The doubts usually happen in my dreams. All the evil things I’ve done in my life resurface and condemn me all over again.
I’m sure I’m not alone in these feelings. We’re especially when we have self doubt of any kind – when our world is upside down and we can’t make any sense of it – when Satan has been allowed to roam the earth and feed us the falsest of information, making us doubt what God has so graciously done for us. I know that Jesus paid the price. I know that I’m forgiven, even though I don’t deserve it. I know that those things are true. I also know that our nature to be sinners is still within us and will remain until we die, so we are fair game in a way.
My dreams will continue. My faith will too. I pray that God would strengthen me day by day so that I can rest in that assurance and know that I have been forgiven once for every sin. We can’t do that by ourselves. God’s example of true forgiveness should be a goal for us too. We need to forgive others when we’ve been hurt by words or deeds. We need to look beyond the fears of this world and reach out to the One who puts everything back together again. He made us. He loves us. He will continue to do so forever. Our lifeline to Him is through His Holy Word. Time to ransack the scriptures again. Oh for the ability to be more like Him every day.
Dear, Father, God,
You have forgiven me of all my sins.. Your mercy is far beyond human comprehension. Help me to forgive others as you have forgiven me. Lead me always to you. You are my rock and salvation. Keep the devil at bay, for I know that you have already defeated him and your power is far greater. Thank you for loving me and the whole world so much that you made the ultimate sacrifice to save us. Amen!