There was a day when I wondered what my lot in life would be.  I’ve often dreamed dreams which could be interpreted as bizarre, frightening and downright dark.  There have been other dreams too.  The ones that show a world clean of all blackness, filled with light and perfection.  Of course the dark might be appealing to some, but for me, I chose to go the other way.

As years passed and I became more knowledgeable and less accepting, I learned to choose my words carefully, but that wasn’t always the right thing to do.  Words and actions must be simultaneous.  If we say one thing and do another, we’re in conflict with ourselves and our opinions don’t hold much water.

Each life experience is a tool for our learning and for building who we will eventually become. If our path takes us down the dark road, we undoubtedly will meet a great number of folks taking the same path.  Maybe the other road isn’t quite as full, but it can lead us to an eventual paradise.

I consider myself a number of personalities.  I’m a woman.  I’m a daughter, mother, wife.  I’ve used my life to teach, to entertain, to bring encouragement to others, but I have a dark side.  I’m a sinner.  This sin was born within me on the day of my conception.  I grew up believing that there was no hope for me.  I was doomed for hell and nothing I could do would ever change that.

Fortunately, I had a solid base.  Most of my ancestors were Christians.  They attended church regularly.  They followed the rules.  They lived life and accomplished what was necessary to provide for their families, but none ever achieved greatness from the world’s perspective.  That wasn’t the primary goal of their lives.  For most of them, it was simply surviving and being sure of life after death in paradise.

I know that there are some skeletons in my closet and often fear to examine too closely.  However, open the door we must.  We must look deep inside and then be held accountable by our judge, God.  This is where it gets tough.  We don’t like being judged.  We don’t want to fear for our lives.  We don’t want our secrets disclosed, so we hide.

But our God is patient.  He waits for us to realize our mistakes and come to Him in repentance.  He is compassionate, because through His Son, Jesus, He became man and lived among us.  He knows all our sorrows and has felt the pain we endure.  He’s also a forgiving Father.  Like the prodigal’s dad, he welcomes us home with open arms when we come back to Him.

Who am I?  I’m me – a forgiven child of God.



As I reach the end of my years, I find I have a lot of good information stored up in this old decrepit mind of mine. If I don't write it all down, it may vanish and no one will have the advantage of my thoughts. This is why this blog exists. I love the Lord, Jesus with all my heart and soul. I know I'm undeserving of all He's done for me, but I also know that His love is beyond my comprehension. I've always wanted to write. I never kept diaries, but tucked my thoughts in my head for future reference. I use them now in creating stories, plays, poetry and my blog. I continue to learn every day. I believe the compilation of our time spent with God will have huge affect on the way we live. I know I'm a sinner and I need a Savior. I have One through Jesus, Christ. My book, "Stages - a memoir," is about the seven stages of life from the perspective of a woman. It addresses all the things girls and women go through in life as they travel it with Jesus, and it is available on
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  1. Amen! As God’s Christian soldiers, we could be cast as a bunch of misfits in another story. Thankfully, our Father reaches out to us sinners with righteousness and forgiveness for His repenting followers.

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    • says:

      Why do we resist the easiest way? Maybe it’s because we want to be in charge, but God’s way is the perfect way and doesn’t cost a cent.


  2. now you’ve got me singing “dem bones” thinking about our hidden skeletons 🙂

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