Another week has passed in this time of the unknown. Every day brings a new challenge. Each problem seems to create more problems and the systemic pain seems to cause more and more destruction to the entire body of civilization.
I cannot do anything about the sins that wounded and killed so many parts of our once unified country. Only your Son, Jesus, can take away sin. I am but a small dot on the planet. I try to speak encouragement to those who would listen. I try to give peace to those who worry. I attempt to use my words to lift up wounded spirits which have been usurped by wrong thinking or imaginary fears. I cannot do so anymore.
My own thoughts have been tarnished by what I’m seeing fall apart all around me. I feel there is no hope for this country of mine because of the great divide between us. I feel useless, because I’m often accused of bigotry or using the platform of my blog to spread my own agenda – whatever that means.
You know my heart, dear God. You know that my intentions are not to hurt anyone. You know that I’m a sinner and without you am doomed to an eternity of suffering. You also love me beyond the world’s comprehension and sent your Son to deliver me and all sinners from the threat of hell. I look forward to an eternity in heaven because of it.
I think it’s time for me to step aside for a while. I’m getting too old to fight for my opinions. I can’t take the untrue accusations. You know that I’m not a racist. You know that I will be accused of being one. You know that my spirit is willing but my flesh is weak and I’ve lost my gumption.
I will be taking a vacation from my blog for a while. I don’t feel what I have to say is important anymore. I’ve lost my joy for speaking about the love you have for humanity. I am not one to give up, but I’m tired. If it is your will, I will continue to spread your good news, but the way I feel now, I’m not even accomplishing that.
Your people are hurting. There is dissention and anger all around us. Life seems not to matter in any shape, size or form. Only you can heal our land. Lord, in your mercy, hear my prayer. Amen!