Dear, Lord,
Another week has passed in this time of the unknown. Every day brings a new challenge. Each problem seems to create more problems and the systemic pain seems to cause more and more destruction to the entire body of civilization.
I cannot do anything about the sins that wounded and killed so many parts of our once unified country. Only your Son, Jesus, can take away sin. I am but a small dot on the planet. I try to speak encouragement to those who would listen. I try to give peace to those who worry. I attempt to use my words to lift up wounded spirits which have been usurped by wrong thinking or imaginary fears. I cannot do so anymore.
My own thoughts have been tarnished by what I’m seeing fall apart all around me. I feel there is no hope for this country of mine because of the great divide between us. I feel useless, because I’m often accused of bigotry or using the platform of my blog to spread my own agenda – whatever that means.
You know my heart, dear God. You know that my intentions are not to hurt anyone. You know that I’m a sinner and without you am doomed to an eternity of suffering. You also love me beyond the world’s comprehension and sent your Son to deliver me and all sinners from the threat of hell. I look forward to an eternity in heaven because of it.
I think it’s time for me to step aside for a while. I’m getting too old to fight for my opinions. I can’t take the untrue accusations. You know that I’m not a racist. You know that I will be accused of being one. You know that my spirit is willing but my flesh is weak and I’ve lost my gumption.
I will be taking a vacation from my blog for a while. I don’t feel what I have to say is important anymore. I’ve lost my joy for speaking about the love you have for humanity. I am not one to give up, but I’m tired. If it is your will, I will continue to spread your good news, but the way I feel now, I’m not even accomplishing that.
Your people are hurting. There is dissention and anger all around us. Life seems not to matter in any shape, size or form. Only you can heal our land. Lord, in your mercy, hear my prayer. Amen!
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Kathy, I share the pain about the current situation in our country. We have been overwhelmed by one crisis after another during the past months. My prayers have felt like I am beating a drum with a never-ending dialogue with the same themes over and over with God. I will continue to pray. God’s peace!
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That’s exactly how I feel. I feel somewhat helpless in this area, because on one hand I know the time is ripe for those who are in need of something to hang onto. On the other hand, our country is so divided right now, we are bound to upset one side or the other. I will continue to pray too. Thanks for your support.
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Your words have always been an encouragement to me Kathy. I am also tired…these last months have been joy-sucking….soul crushing…and have made my spirit bone weary. I am so glad for people who encourage and show me how to have faith. You are one of those people and I thank you for that.
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Thanks so much for this. I’m burned out for now. I know that there is still hope n the Lord and that he has a plan to bring order out of chaos. I need to step aside and get out of his way. He’s got this
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Oh, no! I love your blog! I will miss you. I pray you come back here soon. Sending big ((HUGS))
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Thanks for your kind words. My mind is just a mess right now. I can’t find the words to encourage others. I pray I will come back too with a much clearer head.
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I woke up early this morning from a dream about you. The details of the dream have faded, the way dreams tend to do, but I remember that in my dream, you and I were talking and having a nice visit. Face to face, without worries about social distancing, lol.
I don’t know if my dream means anything special, but it surprised me, because I have been blogging for ten or eleven years all together and I don’t recall ever dreaming about another blogger before. I prayed for you right after I woke up, and I will continue to pray as I go about my day. You are very special and a great blessing. The world is crazy right now though, and I think it’s affecting all of us in different ways. My husband only wants to sleep all the time now, he sleeps about 10-12 hours a day, whereas I am lucky to get more than 5 hours of sleep per night.
The Lord will see us through, though. One way or another, God’s got this! ❤❤❤
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That is so sweet my dear friend. You’ve always been a huge inspiration to me. Your life has been peppered with so much pain and by the grace of God you always rally. He’s been the wind beneath both of our wings and I know he’s got this. I’ve lost some of my spunk lately and feel kind of like a deflated balloon. It’s people like you that give me reason to go on. I’ll be back but need a little time to be with my Creator. Love you.
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Prayers for you weary spirit and soul my friend 🙏❤️ My chest and heart aches for so many reasons, but this I know, each time I’m on the edge of dispare or giving up, God sends a fresh breeze of comfort and hope to encourage me to continue on. May our God of comfort give you rest, refreshment and peace as you spend time with Him🙏❤️
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Thank you so much for your kind encouragement. I know we’ll get through this. God is good and he has a plan for us. I know I need this time to regroup.
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