For the past couple weeks, I’ve been suffering with severe back pain. I’ve a history of kidney stones and this was similar. I had a Cat scan, was given liquids and pain killers intravenously and covered in nice warm blankets. As I lay there thinking about all the possible things that could be wrong with me, I began to feel comfortable with whatever the outcome would be.
The Cat found something it wasn’t looking for. No kidney stones, but there was a nodule on my lung and a small cyst on my liver and kidney. This was all on the opposite side of my pain, so it didn’t make sense. I was sent home with a strong antibiotic and pain meds and told to contact my primary doc the same week. So for a few days, the thought of Cancer consumed my brain. I’m truly not afraid to die, because I know what lies ahead, but the thought of turning my husband into a caregiver and becoming a burden wasn’t the least bit appealing.
During the entire week, we experienced difficult news from a family member who experienced chest pains and needed prayer. I also discovered that she has a blood cancer which effects the thickness of the blood. It is treatable and she’s confident in the outcome.
There are times when news like this comes at you from all sides. Our prayer warrior friends and church family began to pray.
The news from around the world continued to depress and cause anxiety, but now our focus seemed to be on family and health. My primary doc ordered another Cat scan. Those kitties were busy that week. She said the spots were too small and insignificant to be cancerous and I should follow up in another year with another scan. Phew!
In the meantime, she determined that my pain was coming from deteriorating sacral joint arthritis which may require steroid shots or other treatment. Nothing compared to Cancer. One family member got a clean report on the angiogram and was sent home and the other continues to be my hero.
We go through these aging years with great resistance. It’s hard to admit we can’t leap tall buildings anymore. We get tired by 9 PM and now that daylight savings time is changed, I’ll probably be ready for bed at PM. Our tempers sharpen easily, we become grumpy faster, we can’t keep up with the ways of the world and technology doesn’t help. Maybe this is all part of God’s plan to get us ready to leave this place.
However, He continues to bless us while we’re here, by answering our prayers – by supplying wonderful new moments for us to be together and share – by holding us through difficulties and carrying us through the really tough times. He’s also using us to bring others to His fold. We have great news to share and God won’t be done with us until His work is.
As Thanksgiving approaches, I wish to thank Him for continuing to protect me and my family and shield us from danger. I pray that our world will begin to rely on His loving arms and trust in His direction. AMEN!