When life gives us lemons we make lemonade, or lemon bars, or sour faces. I have been stewing for a few months now over what to do with my life. I’ve been running in overdrive for a number of years and it’s time to make a change.
It’s hard for me to change and, like Peter Pan, I never want to grow up. I like things to run on an even keel, but I also consider myself adaptable. Over the years, I’ve been blessed with great parents, sister, husband, children, grandchildren, students and friends. Through those years, I’ve moved several times, gone through job changes, moves, personal growth and a stronger faith resulted. There have been highs and lows in every aspect of my life, but most always the highs outweigh the lows.
I have seen times of near poverty, and great wealth. I’ve enjoyed the benefit of having a resourceful husband who has a million ideas yet to be finished. I’ve loved watching my own children grow into mature, God fearing adults. I have been blessed with good health, except for many unwanted pounds which have departed and reentered my life. I have seen my husband go through Cancer treatments and a stroke within the past few years.
There have been moments of sadness as those we love have passed from this veil of tears, but rejoicing that they knew their Savior and are now guests at His banquet table. We have seen many new lives come to be – watched them grow – had a part in their lives – loved them.
When it comes time to change again, I can’t tell you how hard I’ve resisted. I knew we had to move to a more affordable home. Living on Social Security alone does that to you. The thought of getting rid of mountains of accumulation from 52 years of marriage was daunting. We are now in our new home and I love it. I know that whatever lies ahead, is just the beginning of a new adventure and that my final destination will be the best.
I have made the decision to no longer work so hard. The fact that some of these decisions have already been put in place has helped me to do that. I’m also discovering that if I just remain dormant, I’m going to die very soon. I feel like God still has a task or two for me to accomplish, so I will go back to work again, without all the demands.
Change is good most of the time, but one thing that never changes is the love of our God. Through whatever situations we sustain, he always remains the same.