To be confused is a state of mind when things don’t always add up. You might be facing an illness – a relationship breakdown – a financial issue – a family struggle where all the facts point to a solution and suddenly you are faced with another option. What do you do? Like the quote above, “if confusion is the first step to knowledge, I must be a genius,” I have been on this path all my life. By now I should be more brilliant than Einstein – have a higher IQ than Leonardo da Vinci – be as innovative as Edison and as rich as John D. Rockefeller. Instead, I’m an average 81-year-old woman who has accomplished very little in this life but continues to learn every day.

As King Solomon expressed his opinion of life being meaningless, there are days when I wonder why am I here? I struggle with the opinions of others. I become confused when people can’t take “no” for an answer. I am totally bewildered by the health care system. I wonder about our country – our morality – our sin. I’m at a loss concerning the violence that continues to escalate in our world. Question marks fly above my head when I have to fill out a health care form that asks what I identify as.

Still, in all this confusion – the roller coaster rides of life – the fear of death and loss – the trust in other human beings which has been challenged, all leads to more confusion. There is only one thing that allows me to carry on. I know that God, my Creator, my Father, my Brother, my Savior, my everything, is in complete control of every perplexing thing that tugs at my heart. His Word always draws me to the right passage. He never changes and He is always available to counsel me.

“Let my cry come before you, O” Lord;
    give me understanding according to your word!” Psalm 119:169 ESV