Have you ever felt like you’re completely losing it?  I know part of this has to do with the aging process, but I can recall days in my own childhood when I thought I was going a little crazy.  There were those days of turning from a child into a woman, when hormones were raging to heights they had never gone before.  There were the years of learning and wondering if I ever would get it.  The years as a young wife, adjusting to the idiosyncrasies of her young husband who left his laundry on the floor and rolled up the toothpaste tube, not to mention leaving the toilet seat up after using it.

Then came the children. Each one with their own set of needs, demands, goals and dreams.  Each one would call on every ounce of energy, patience, nurturing and love you could muster.  As they grew, more and more demands were made on your brain, your emotions, your desire to do what was necessary to be a good parent. Even then, you create wonderful memories amidst the worry.

As time wears on we tuck those experiences away in our memory bank for future reference.  The things we learn through experience, through suffering and hard times, through successes and failures can all be part of growing up and growing closer to heaven.

When the children leave the nest, you  reignite your relationship with your spouse.  You make new memories by traveling or taking up a hobby.  All those old memories cease to be for the moment.  Your brain has reached capacity and in some cases it’s ready to crash.  Still you press on to fill it further with more and more information, more joy, more satisfaction.

Retirement years in this day and age are usually met with financial needs, physical concerns, eating right and getting enough exercise.  You realize you need to continue working or you might starve, but you know God will provide.  He always does.

When Alzheimers or Dementia occurs, you are no longer the same person.  Most of your latest memories have faded from your brain.  Eventually you don’t recognize those you love the most.  That is the point where you dig deeply to find just one memory and you can only recall the earliest ones.  I believe this is like a life preserver for those who suffer with these maladies.  God always provides hope for those who feel all is lost.  In those old memories, you still have something to live for.  You can recall some of the highlights of your life.  It’s like a soft pillow that cushions some of the pain of losing it.

No matter where God leads us in life – no matter how difficult times may seem – no matter how we wonder if it will serve any purpose – God has designed every life to fill an important part in the design of His magnificent plans for us.  We may at times feel like we’re losing it, but in the end we will always win!

“Even to your old age I am he and to gray hairs I will carry you.
I have made, and I will bear; I will carry and will save.”

Isaiah 46:4


As I reach the end of my years, I find I have a lot of good information stored up in this old decrepit mind of mine. If I don't write it all down, it may vanish and no one will have the advantage of my thoughts. This is why this blog exists. I love the Lord, Jesus with all my heart and soul. I know I'm undeserving of all He's done for me, but I also know that His love is beyond my comprehension. I've always wanted to write. I never kept diaries, but tucked my thoughts in my head for future reference. I use them now in creating stories, plays, poetry and my blog. I continue to learn every day. I believe the compilation of our time spent with God will have huge affect on the way we live. I know I'm a sinner and I need a Savior. I have One through Jesus, Christ. My book, "Stages - a memoir," is about the seven stages of life from the perspective of a woman. It addresses all the things girls and women go through in life as they travel it with Jesus, and it is available on
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14 Responses to AM I LOSING IT?

  1. Salvageable says:

    This is why it is good to memorize hymns and Bible verses while you are young. I have visited people in nursing homes who cannot remember what they had for lunch or when they last saw their children (yesterday), but start a hymn and they can sing it through to the end. J.

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    • says:

      So true. I can remember so many of those old hymns and the Bible passages too. I don’t remember where they are in the Bible, but they pop up in my head all the time. Thanks for your comment.

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  2. hatrack4 says:

    You draw the same conclusion. Craziness is hereditary. You get it from your kids.

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  3. Maybe I need to start calling you Yoda?!

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  4. The Eclectic Contrarian says:

    I can’t remember the exact verse but there’s a verse that says that God’s people will praise Him in a sober, right mind. And I remember my old pastors father got terrible dementia. But if someone would start talking about the Lord, he’d start praising God like he was in church. He’d talk about God and then drift back into his state. Scripture proves true!

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  5. davidkitz says:

    I love the optimism! We can be optimistic when we have a resurrected Lord.

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  6. Unshaken Joy says:

    Love that verse at the end! I think we’re all losing it to some degree, whatever our age. 🙂

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