There are days like that, when I simply don’t have a clue. I don’t understand why the world is rotating the way it is. I can’t begin to understand the workings of our nation’s leadership and Washington, DC is just a dot on the map. It seems like law enforcement has been hogtied and vigilante justice is now ruling our streets. I guess I’m getting old, because the things I used to hold in high esteem are now the low man on the totem pole and life as I knew it is completely upside down. The ideals of Christianity are being tossed aside in favor of a live and let live attitude, which allows for tolerance of any kind of behavior.
OK, I am old. I never thought I’d get this old. Many of my aunts and uncles died at an early age. My father was only 62 when he passed. Some lived to nearly 100 years. I guess there’s no limit to longevity in this day of modern medicine and concentration on the physical prowess of youth. Still, as our bodies age, I think our mind takes a back seat and just wonders what we’re still doing here. What kind of contribution can an old lady like me make to the world? Does anything I’ve learned over the last eight decades of living have any worth? Can I share my wisdom and make a difference? Will my voice still be heard or am I wasting valuable oxygen? How can I make a difference in a world that I don’t understand? Again, I have to answer, “I don’t have a clue.”
The only place to find a clue that makes any sense for me is in God’s Word. I am convinced in my heart and mind, that God will not forsake me. He will always be at my side, even when I can’t make any sense of things. His love, His kindness, His compassion, His empathy, His consistency, His peace and mercy endure forever, so I need not worry about the menial problems that each day might bring. I do not have the ability to change the world, but He does.
“So even to old age and gray hairs,
O God, do not forsake me,
until I proclaim your might to another generation,
your power to all those to come.” Psalm 71:18 ESV
So, I ask that God would give me the ability to share His love with the next generation, so that it continues on and on and that will be my legacy. I can’t think of a better gift to leave behind.