Here it is, January 7th, 2020 – a year I never thought I’d reach, but God had other thoughts. I’ve never seemed to have a problem with writer’s block, but I am an author with “publishing block.” I’ve published one book in my life. It was a self-published book which was mainly intended as a legacy for my family to read some day. The story was and autobiography, mixed with humor and a whole lot of faith. When I got deep into some of the darker parts if my life, I put the work away. It sat for a number of years.
You see, I have this fear of rejection, which shouldn’t be part of the equation when you self-publish. The problem is I also have a fear of investing my meager dollars into something as unreliable as publishing my own work.
So much for my excuses. The truth is I have written a novel. I sweat over this story for a number of years, using all my gifts of developing interesting, conflicted, unusual characters – skill I attained over years of acting and writing plays. I believe characters are everything on both sides of the performing stage. I assumed this would be true in the writing of a book of fiction. I had no trouble defining my characters and their unique situations, but I fell short in the telling of the story. I created more characters than necessary. I fell into a trap of too many side stories which really didn’t pertain to the actual flow of the main theme. I had no idea that such a work would be so all-consuming.
My husband, the artist, assures me that everything is a work in progress. Sometimes we need to tweak or alter our thinking to make the most of it. Sometimes that never happens and we are left to abandoning it for a while. When we come back to it in a few years, our eyes will be fresh and have found the answers we struggled over for so long.
The mentality of finding instant success in our art is really quite a pie in the sky attitude. Yet when we believe in something, we shouldn’t hesitate because of fear of rejection or the loss of a few bucks.
One of my New Year hopes is to finally submit this work to a publisher. For this, I need a good swift kick in the pants or it’s back to the drawing board. In either case, I will never give up.
I’m glad you have resolved not to give up. I’ve seen how projects (both fiction and nonfiction) can be moved to a back burner, simmer unsupervised for a while, and suddenly be ready for adjustment, editing, improving, and just old-fashioned stirring. Now that I’ve accomplished the self-publishing part (which took some urging from my counselor), I need to work on self-promotion; I’ve given away more books than I’ve sold. J.
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That seems to be a common dilemma. The same happened with my memoir.
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Thanks Vincent ❤️❤️❤️
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You’re very welcome Kathy 😇😍
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I was just thinking about your ‘book’ the other day and wondered if you had submitted it yet—I suppose I now know the answer.
Let’s pray that God gives you the green light in a big way…one you can’t ignore.
Oh, and I had that scope thing—all is well.
There is a kidney stone hanging out in a kidney but that is that—the real issue is the
liver, pancreas, and gallbladder—the MRI will be Jan 20th—
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I’m glad it’s just hanging out. I’m still recovering even though my doc said everything looks good on the blood work and the bacteria is making more. I’m very tired. I’ve lost 24 pounds and haven’t been trying. I started another stage managing job last night and will be back teaching my 55+ class on Thursday. Pray I have the energy. I will keep you in my prayers too. We have to pray for each other. We’re both too spunky to be ill.
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Wow— 24 pounds— well, you did want to shed some pounds— I’d like too but despite all this mess, I’m not.
Friday night I thought about you and the ER as I was laying on the floor with what they now think was a pancreatitis attack— or maybe gallstones- whose time say— as they keep sending me for tests 🤬😱
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Don’t be like me and try to push through it. The ER is underrated,
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I couldn’t get up and Gregory slept through my ordeal— even the throwing up – he finally woke up at 5:30 when I informed him him I about died— but by then I was exhausted and didn’t want to go— and there’s not been another flare up— so I’m seeing my primary doc tomorrow 😑
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I’m glad to hear that 😍
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The book will wait!
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Wait it shall oh one from on high!
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good luck when you send it. Go for it
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Thanks for your encouragement ❤️
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I want to read your novel! Praying for you to find a publisher.
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Thanks. I want to read your memoir too.
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All of this takes faith. Faith and persistence. I know from personal experience.
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Thanks David. You give me the encouragement to press on.
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🦵 👖 Here’s your kick in the pants!
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Thanks I needed that💕😜
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🤗
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I hope the book gets published
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Thanks, me too!
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👍
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