You’re born into an ordinary life to people of little means. You’ve barely gotten to know your mother’s face when she’s forced to give you up in order to save you from persecution and death.Your life changes drastically as you’re adopted into a wealthy family.

You grow up in luxury – learn things you never would have been afforded otherwise – grow into a strong individual with power you never dreamed of.  As you mature you see the injustices around you. They tug at your heart. You feel helpless . You witness a young man being unjustly beaten by another and intercede. By defending the underdog, you become the victim. Your rage puts you in an ugly situation and you take a life to save one.

What you do next makes you appear a coward. You run away. You hide for many years without apprehension. You change your identity – try to fit in – find a new life. You try to forget your past, but it soon catches up with you.

Days progress and you’ve almost forgotten the weaknesses of your youth, but now those secrets resurface in your dreams.  The devil presses guilt in your heart like a hot branding iron  claiming victory over your soul.

You show signs of aging.  You fear that you’re destined to a future in hell, but your life doesn’t end because of it. God has something else in mind. He still has work for you to do and it involves facing into your darkest fears.

You return to the place of your youth, but you do so reluctantly. You feel unqualified, haunted, unworthy.. Your reluctance turns to fear and cripples you, but then you realize there’s a reason for all of this. You return only to be met with more adversity.

They haven’t forgotten about you.  They recognize you.  Your true identity has been revealed in high places.  You have a price on your head, but you are determined to face your fears.

Facing into certain death or a life in prison are extremely difficult choices.  First we have to admit our failings to those we’ve harmed.  Then we ask for forgiveness.  We may not escape, but we’ve set in motion a means whereby we can be rescued.  The same thing happens when we come to God and confess our sins.  When the  confession is sincere, we can be sure of getting it.

People aren’t nearly as gracious.  Old garbage is  dragged from the dump to be revealed to a waiting world.  The ugliness of our misdeeds is paraded before everyone and we’re judged by our past.  Usually this turns into a mob mentality and we’re sentenced to a life of shame and humiliation.  Now the truth is out.  There is no escaping – no hiding – no redemption.  Thankfully our future doesn’t depend on others or ourselves for salvation.  God has wiped the slate clean with the perfect life of His own Son, releasing us from the guilt of our sin and allowing us to do great things for Him.

Moses realized his sin, but tried to hide it. When he faced his past mistakes and asked for forgiveness, he was allowed to do what he was born for. We certainly can’t hide from God.  He’s promised to be with us always.

Run to God and with Him – He will set mountains on fire and use you for His purpose.


As I reach the end of my years, I find I have a lot of good information stored up in this old decrepit mind of mine. If I don't write it all down, it may vanish and no one will have the advantage of my thoughts. This is why this blog exists. I love the Lord, Jesus with all my heart and soul. I know I'm undeserving of all He's done for me, but I also know that His love is beyond my comprehension. I've always wanted to write. I never kept diaries, but tucked my thoughts in my head for future reference. I use them now in creating stories, plays, poetry and my blog. I continue to learn every day. I believe the compilation of our time spent with God will have huge affect on the way we live. I know I'm a sinner and I need a Savior. I have One through Jesus, Christ. My book, "Stages - a memoir," is about the seven stages of life from the perspective of a woman. It addresses all the things girls and women go through in life as they travel it with Jesus, and it is available on
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