The intensity of my days seems to have come to a waning afterthought, but still in my quiet time, I’m learning to categorize the important things – eliminate the unnecessary – prioritize the meaningful – resist the desire to return to the same mega-ferociousness of my once extremely exhausting lifestyle.
It isn’t easy to slow down without feeling guilty. At least, not so in my case. Up until now, my time has been dedicated to others and the thought of turning inward doesn’t fit my vocabulary. The idea of taking a nap in the middle of the day is new to me. The thought of not having something to be busy at is frustrating. I know the time has come for me to enjoy my life without obligation, but that concept has a hard time butting its way into my little pea brain.
So how does one go from an extremely busy schedule to a non-existent one? Most people would be delighted to simply let go of all responsibility, restraints or burdens. I secretly have thought how delicious that concept would be. Something inside me is still beckoning me to do all things at the pace of Martha as she prepared a meal for her Savior. I dream of becoming more like Mary in my approach to this new way of life.
Proverbs 3:24 “If you lie down, you will not be afraid;
when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.”
My new church ends its service with the bible verse from Isaiah 40:31. I long for the day when I can be lifted up on the wings of eagles and never grow weary, and then I realize that I already have been..
Dear, Lord, thank you for blessing my life with peaceful rest. Help me to accept this new way of living and renewing me so that I can further serve you – in your way – not mine. Amen!