BORN AGAIN OR JUST BORN?

As I read other Christian authors I’m amazed by their extraordinary conversions. Many of them have been extremely inspirational and demonstrate the zeal of their faith.

My story is different. Some might even find it boring. I’m a Christian. I ‘ve been one since my baptism as an infant. I went to Christian schools through high school. I was confirmed in my faith when I was 13. I married a Christian man with high morals and a love for God which I had not yet experienced, despite my long connection to the church. We’ve been married for fifty years and it took me most of those years to really get to know my Savior

I was the child that always followed the rules, but in my mind I never felt good enough to be saved. I always felt that there was something more I should do or say or believe.

In my younger years, I saw hypocrisy in the church. People would go and worship on Sunday and live totally different lives during the week. I saw my church build into a business rather than a house of worship. I saw a lot of human error, but later realized that we can only do God’s work with Him as the CEO. The minute we get in the way, corruption occurs. The pastor of my youth was a “fire and brimstone” preacher and I was always terrified that I would spend eternity in hell.

I’ve never experienced  the vivid feelings of exhilaration or enthusiasm that I hear from new Christians. It’s always just been there for me, but it’s taken a long time for me to really understand it.

Many years and many churches later, I’ve learned that wherever the Word of God is taught, God is there. It really has nothing to do with us or our feelings or any kind of extraordinary revelation. God is there!

For me, the journey has been one of slow and steady growth. I know that I’m a work in progress and the work won’t be completed until I join my Creator in heaven.

I  believe that God crafted me before I was even born. He knew that I would have difficulty with my weight. He knew that I would have a dad that drank too much and used words to put me down. He knew that it would take me years to develop and that didn’t matter to Him. He knew that even though my self-image was in the pits, I’d one day feel beautiful and useful to Him. He also chose the right people to put in my life.

I didn’t have a “born again” experience. I’ve had a “lifetime” experience being crafted by my Creator. God has whittled away at me – carving each little bit of my character – punching at the clay to form my life into what He wants it to be. He has given me challenges which I can now use to help someone going through the same difficulties.

By creating a free will in me, He has also given me the ability to choose what I believe. I choose Jesus. I will die knowing that He is my Savior and King. I hope I can live the rest of my life serving Him.

I pray that I have a few years left to share how Jesus has meshed His way into my heart – how He has woven hope in times of despair – how He has held my hand when I was unsure – how He carried me through life threatening moments – how He continues to hold me on the last leg of my earthly existence – how He can make a real difference in the lives of those who don’t know Him yet.

About atimetoshare.me

As I reach the end of my years, I find I have a lot of good information stored up in this old decrepit mind of mine. If I don't write it all down, it may vanish and no one will have the advantage of my thoughts. This is why this blog exists. I love the Lord, Jesus with all my heart and soul. I know I'm undeserving of all He's done for me, but I also know that His love is beyond my comprehension. I've always wanted to write. I never kept diaries, but tucked my thoughts in my head for future reference. I use them now in creating stories, plays, poetry and my blog. I continue to learn every day. I believe the compilation of our time spent with God will have huge affect on the way we live. I know I'm a sinner and I need a Savior. I have One through Jesus, Christ. My book, "Stages - a memoir," is about the seven stages of life from the perspective of a woman. It addresses all the things girls and women go through in life as they travel it with Jesus, and it is available on Amazon.com.
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23 Responses to BORN AGAIN OR JUST BORN?

  1. tellthetruth1 says:

    My experience didn’t have any huge fireworks, either. But I’m glad to report that I know I’m His, even though, currently, my life works from disaster to disaster. Learning to live alone with tragedy is the hardest bit. Pages like yours keep things in perspective for me. I’m so grateful to have online contacts who love the Lord. If I didn’t have the Internet, I’d have no fellowship at all.

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    • atimetoshare says:

      Do you have a church? In my case whenever we moved from place to place we started to look for a church. This has been a constant companionship for me and my family. Almost all our friends are church related. When you become part of that body of Christ you can help to heal each other. Gods blessings to you. Remember that he is your best friend in this life and the next. Thanks for reading my blog!

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      • tellthetruth1 says:

        No, not now. I was going for a while some years ago, but had a rather undesirable experience and left. Can’t go now due to certain circumstances, so grab everything I can online 🙂

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      • atimetoshare says:

        Well you can count on me. I’m here for you, sister!

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      • tellthetruth1 says:

        That such awesome encouragement. You have no idea what that means to me, (God does, tho’), and I love you for it. God be with you always 🙂 xx

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  2. Ron Barefoot says:

    I took lunch break to look at some new blogs, yours was a great read! I wish everyone would realize that grace is a journey! I love the Lord but I feel I learn more each day and sometimes that comes with failing Him! Be blessed!

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    • atimetoshare says:

      Thank you, Ron. I think once God plants himself in our hearts we are all works in progress. Thanks for taking time to read!

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  3. Kathy, every persons conversion is different. From the deeply emotional to not even sure when it occurred I’ve seen. Thanks for sharing your story. You do a great job of sharing the Gospel everyday. Good and faithful servant you are. Lord bless you!!!

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    • atimetoshare says:

      I know that the Holy Spirit works differently on each of us. He began with me when I was baptized. I praise him every day for his presence in my life. Thanks for your encouragement.

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  4. Wally Fry says:

    Ya know…not everybody gets Saul of Tarsus moment. Your work here is still powerful and important. Bless it.

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  5. mzpresser says:

    Love this Kathy! I love how we are all so different. As you know I had a Damascus road experience but I would have given anything to have known Jesus sooner. We all think the grass is greener, right? Love you

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    • atimetoshare says:

      I agree we are all different and God uses each of us to spread his love and message. We are part of Christ’s body and I am honored to be a part of it along with you and all the others he has chosen. It took me many years to know Jesus, even though he was a part of my life from the beginning. We both have been blessed. BTW, YOU SHOULD WRITE A BOOK TELLING YOUR STORY💞💖💕😘😍😄

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  6. Kim Bakaev says:

    Kathy, I love this!! Thank you for taking time to walk readers through your faith journey. Evangelicals definitely like to point to a single, definable moment of becoming “born again”. “You must be born again” is the reference that is cited from John 3:7 where Jesus is talking to Nicodemus. Doctrines and denominations are built on that. You’re either “in” or you’re “out” based on a definitive born again moment, usually involving a “sinner’s prayer” (which is not scriptural that I see). I heard Rich Mullins point out that Jesus also told the rich young ruler that he must sell everything and give it to the poor to follow him. We don’t really hear people asking when you “became a pauper” as a their validation for being initiated into God’s family! On the day of Pentecost, Peter preached the good news to the multitudes. They heard the news, repented and believed. They went on to get baptized and it said that 3,000 were added to the faith. Some come to Jesus in a life-changing moment. Others, and I include myself in that, never remember NOT believing that Jesus is the savior. There was never necessarily a “conversion” moment. But, as you beautifully expressed, God has been with us on a journey of faith, drawing us closer to Him, transforming us more and more into the image of His son. We choose daily to say “yes” or “no” to His leading. I do not believe in the notion of “all roads leading to Rome” or universalism. Jesus made it very clear that no one comes to the Father but through Him. He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. But, how we come to faith in Him is special to each of us who know Him. We as the body of Christ need to stop being so divided and judgmental of each other’s relationship with the Lord. We’re doing the enemy’s work for him!

    Thanks again for sharing your story, my dear sister!

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    • atimetoshare says:

      Amen, my dear sister in Christ. Each one of us does eventually figure things out for ourselves. I know some evangelicals that believe if you aren’t born again you aren’t saved. Many of these folks are gung ho in their belief, but their flame can easily burn out. Others have such a desire to learn more and grow through Jesus and it makes me happy to see that, because I know they are on the right track. It isn’t always about a feeling or an emotional experience, but more about letting the spirit work in us. God doesn’t need our help. Thank you so much for your comments. I feel a kinship with you that goes even deeper than blood.

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  7. annj49 says:

    Thanks for sharing 🙂

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  8. Lionel Sneed says:

    Kathy, this is so beautiful and such passion.

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  9. Great testimony – thank you for sharing the story of your walk.

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  10. estherlou says:

    It is so easy to look at someone else and think what they have or have experienced is better. I had to learn that God speaks to all of us in different ways. Some, in quiet love and encouragement, and some need a knock on the head to get their attention.LOL I’ve experienced both. The important thing you pointed out is that lifelong dependence and love of His presence in our lives! Great post.

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    • atimetoshare says:

      Thank you so much for you kind comments. I have been blessed to have my savior in my life from early on, but it took many knocks on the head before I really knew Him. Every story is different. We all know how it ends! God wins!

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